May 5 (NFTY Part 3)

Mechina rolls around for the second time. I went on the RCVP trip, which let me meet those in my network and start forming connections. It was amazing to see how one of the members of my own network from the year before, Rio Blue, was now the head of the new group. I began to consider my own future in NFTY, something that occurs frequently. I spent the rest of Mechina meeting the amazing leaders that are in our movement, and seeing the incredible things that we are poised to achieve.

My first event of my senior year finally came. I had spent four weeks at camp, and spending the fifth there with NFTY was very good for me. What wasn't so good was what was going on at home. My mom had, halfway through the summer, been diagnosed with breast cancer. I had discovered this the day before I left for camp, so it was most definitely plaguing my mind. Having the chance to be with NFTY allowed me to ease my mind and to be comfortable with those around me. Frankly, I was comforted by the company of my best friends.

Two moments stick out for me as the turning points of Summer Kallah and my term as RCVP. The first was on Friday night, during services. My friends from school had just arrived and the weather outside featured a nasty thunderstorm. We cam together for the first time as a full community. I don't remember what the theme was for the service. It didn't even matter. We sang and prayed with an enthusiasm I don't think I have ever seen before or since. We enjoyed Shabbat with all of our hearts and were moved by the experience. It was a life-changing moment for everyone involved, and still gives me chills when I think about it.

The second moment came during Havdallah. I created a Jewish star with candles and allowed each person to light one, completing the star with light. I had no idea what would come from this. What resulted was a single photo of a illuminated Jewish Star that blazed across the wallpaper of every phone in NFTY CANOe. Many NFTYites still have this wallpaper for their phone, even now so many months later. This was an example of making something tangible, despite the loftiness of my religious duty.

As my senior year in NFTY progressed, I spent more of my time working beyond simply writing services. I tried to write blog posts to open the eyes of my region. I tried to incorporate Judaism into the lives of all NFTYites.

Now we come to the most significant time of my NFTY life: my second Convention. Before the event, I decided that I, after serving two years as the Chicago Area Region Religious and Cultural Vice President, I wanted to move up to the next level. I would run for the North American RCVP position. This is a position that many had encouraged me to pursue and that I knew I could do. I also knew that this would be my way of remaining in the movement for the benefit of both the organization and myself.

Once at Convention, it turned out I could relax a little bit (I was running unopposed), yet I also wanted to make sure that all of those in NFTY knew how much I loved it and how much I was willing to do to advance the movement.

Over the course of five days, I was involved in amazingly eye-opening services, educational programming, and intense fun. I also saw close to 800 Jews come together to rock out with our greatest Jewish musical artists. Nothing is more meaningful than rocking out while praising God.

At the end of the event, elections took place where I and three others (eventually four) were selected to be the next leaders of the North American Federation of Temple Youth. I am so excited to get the chance that so few have ever had, and to truly make the organization that I love so much a meaningful experience for all young Jews.

More later.

April 20 (NFTY part 2)

As I served on regional board, I was given eight amazing people with whom I grew. Sam and Joe were the two older guys who I looked up to and who taught me what it meant to be a leader, all while remaining "one of the guys." I had Sydney and Jordyn, who had an elegance to their leadership that I worked to emulate. The rest I will talk about later.

I ran through my junior year on board, learning how to lead and finding my way. I quickly made a close friendship with NFTY Northern's RCVP, Forrest Yesnes, never dreaming of where those two juniors would end up.

Soon it came time again for KOLBO. This time, I was seeking the presidency. I ran with every intention of winning. I had no idea in my head that defeat was even an option. Unfortunately, I had set myself up for bitter disappointment. I was defeated by someone who later became one of my best friends. I was forced to run for reelection to RCVP, a position that I still loved but had thought I had outgrown. It turns out I was wrong. Wrong about everything that weekend. Wrong about my role as president, wrong about my maturity, wrong about my calling. I thank God for unanswered prayers, and that I had the chance to wind up where I truly belong.

More later.

April 18 (NFTY part 1)

I had to say goodbye to my best friends yesterday. After four years of friendship, I had to walk away from the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Yesterday was my last day in NFTY-CAR. I, as a graduating senior, got my chance to walk around the senior circle and talk about how much NFTY as meant to me. I had both a thousand words to say, and yet was, and still am, speechless.

I wanted to take the time to debrief for myself. Eight grade KOLBO was the beginning. My first event was not the stereotypical bad first event. I actually had a lot of fun. I read Torah, which was an exciting chance to get immediately involved in the religious and cultural end of NFTY. Once the event was over, I felt good about NFTY, but not head over heels.

Now comes the regret. I didn't go to Summer Kallah or Kickoff my freshmen year. This, now, in retrospect, was a massive mistake on my part. I should have gone to accelerate my love of NFTY. I guess it doesn't really matter, because I got to go to 26 events, but I still wish I had gotten more involved more quickly.

For the next year, from one Winter Kallah to the next, I went and had fun. I liked the feeling of community that I had when I was there. I liked the friendships I was making.

I decided in the early days of 2009 that I wanted to go to Convention. It would be my first North American event, and I wanted to take my involvement to another level.

I look at my first Convention as the moment when I went from liking NFTY to the deep love that has consumed me for years. I had friends who were seniors, which, as a sophomore was pretty cool. I was actively getting involved in the politics of the event, and took a close look at the possibility of running for my own regional board.

At KOLBO 2009, I ran. I put myself out there in NFTY and began my love affair with the position of Religious and Cultural Vice President. During elections, I gave a speech that involved participation by the audience. Many still remember "Why Austin?" and some see that as the reason I was elected. It was definitely the first time I felt that I was a good speaker.

More is to come tomorrow.

April 2

Baseball season is finally here. I am so much happier when the Cubs are playing. I have an outlet for all of my emotions. Every emotion I could ever imagine comes through:

Happiness: Nothing shows happiness quite like flying the big blue W over Wrigley Field after a win.

Frustration: When the Cubs walk in a run (which they are notorious for doing) it is amazing that I don't put my foot through the TV.

Sadness: Knowing that October very well may come and leave the Cubs behind. Again.

Hope: Maybe this will be our year. And if anyone says otherwise, just keep wishing.

Jealousy: The Yankees and their 27 championships. That is frustrating. Can't they share some of those?

Contentment: Not that I enjoy seeing other people suffer, but seeing the Twins and whoever is playing the White Sox win gives me a nice feeling.

As the Cubs begin their year, we can only hope that this is our year. I will, however, follow every game and be sure to keep the hope alive. Gotta love baseball season.